Appointments all Scheduled...BREATHE

I have to keep telling myself to BREATHE... especially when I start to feel a bit overwhelmed. Honestly, after all my breakdowns over the weekend the past couple have days have been rather calm and free of a lot of much emotion and panic. I also think writing these posts is VERY helpful for me. Ever since I started I don't feel so out of control with illogical emotion.

So taking a deep breathe...

However, today I have spoken to the people at the Huntsman three different times. Feeling happy that things seem to be moving forward, but also a little freaked out at the realization this is REALLY happening to me. Yesterday I was thinking... maybe it will all go AWAY but it's not!

Anyway, just a quick update...I have scheduled my first appointments for the following:

• Gynocologist - She will be talking to me and planning what we're doing for my hysterectomy.
  
• Surgeon #1 - This appointment will be the one we talk to about the details regarding Bilateral Prophylactic Mastectomy. Hopefully he can answer all my questions about the pre-op, operation and post-op.
  
• Surgeon #2 - This doctor will be the lucky receipient of MANY questions regarding my reconstruction options. I always wanted to say I went to a plastic surgeon, but this was not what I ever imagined. Go figure!

So happy that I can work towards making a PLAN...but still scared.